Not Here Yet

My next steps seem clearer but somehow, lady luck isn't here.
May have to be patient.

Next

Have been quiet ....been doing some, quite a fair bit of thinking about next steps.

Clue-Less

Gasp. I suddenly realised that I dun know what I want to do for work anymore. So, where do and can I go from here?

Another love song

Another sad song which I like recently..from Vanness Wu
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7vIxSAbNTgw&feature=related
心痛过我才学懂得 你的守候 我狠狠划破
那些错我用生命来救 爱没走
你包容我太多挥霍 你能不能再次看看我
别无所求只要你回头
爱没走 失去你我丢了所有

Help Needed

One day, I vow to get myself onto this list. However, I must first need someone to introduce me to these editors. Help me, help me...
http://www.herworld.com/love-men-sex/sexiest/top-5-sexiest-local-celebrities?sms_ss=twitter&at_xt=4e842ef84acd943c%2C0

BM Vocal

Bruno Mars is my "latest craze" as in I suddenly discover that those EL songs that I have been hearing were his...and only recently I found out (so embarassing rite? haha)
Lazy Song ->http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fLexgOxsZu0&feature=relmfu
Marry Me, Lighters, Just the way you are, Grenade ...
I am trying to tune in to some 2011 dance-able songs so that I am in tune with the young ...haha...

This song tugs my heart when I heard it for the first time. The very beautifully written lyrics just resonate so much with how I was feeling at this very moment.

Thank you, Vae for singing this so so touching song.

想象之中付出会有结果 毫无保留信奉你的承诺
想象之中这次要爱很久 我领略过你眼里的温柔 ...

热烈以后你忽然的冰冻 判若两人丢给我去承受
想象中 很不同 想象中 一切都和后来不同
我承认 曾经那么心动

你没想象中那么恋旧 回忆唤不回你的温柔
最后也不是故作冷漠 转过头我怎么有一滴泪落
我没想象中那么脆弱 分开后形容也没消瘦
一起踏过了几座春秋 领悟了爱不是追逐占有

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EhumdIGIGVE&feature=related

shocked.

so shocked and scary - read about the news that yahoo CEO was fired over the phone and had to leave immediately. this is like the harsh reality of the private working world..will this happen to us one day if we do not perform to expectations?
as such, one has to always make back up plans or prepare for the worst...esp if we seem not to be 'performing' ....sigh...no wonder pple are living in stress, working longer hours, dying earlier....

Another Love Song

Another touchy love song by Wong Lee Hom.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zvUsOXNPVxo

你不知道我为什么狠下心
还悬在你看不见那高空里
我的事 你不知道的事

Bidding Goodbye

One of my favourite song -> 再見王子
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GsmIV_XTDTY

Though I am bidding goodbye, but
因為我不知道 下一輩子是否還能遇見你
所以我今生才會 那麼努力把最好的給你
[so beautifully written by Hins)

Quiet here

I have been quiet here as I was hooked to another platform - social media - FB.
Over there, the post is more instaneous and read by more ...however, not everyone cares or appreciates.

Attempt

My first attempt - and it is published. Maybe, I may be a celebrity blogger someday...haha
Cos, I cannot Gentleman PaPa (the male version of LG) or David B (renowned footballer).
http://www.todayonline.com/Voices/EDC110713-0000187/My-learning-journey-on-being-there-for-my-son

So Far So Good

Family Members and Ex-colleagues are concerned about me and my new job.
I would say - so far so good. As there is no perfect job on earth, we make do what we could.
I see some scope and potential for growth, though human relations could be a challenge.
I look forward to making a difference someday.
Suddenly, my other opportunities doors are also knocking - I am eager to see what lies ahead.

Guilt

29 June was my farewell day.
I left with a sense of guilt ...cos, everyone was so nice to me. It is always like that.
I know I broke some hearts but that's life, haven't I been breaking hearts?
It will be a new journey from 1 July. I must stay focused and strong.
[A teacher got her pupils to do me a card, and the words were so sweet, though 'guilty' i dun recall these pupils. Sigh.]

Starting Again

3 years in the job has passed.
I am looking forward to a brand new start in July 2011.
I hope that all will turn out well. As one ages, one gets a little fearful of starting (again).

Staying Toned

I have a new craving for staying toned, like what I am now.
I have lost abt 3 kg in the last few months. I like what I am now, but my wife don't.
Maybe, I am more attractive and can get the bees. She thinks I am too thin.

Not Ez

Not easy these days to be in the civil/public service.
'Heads are to roll' cos of failure to put in place processes...sometimes, 'it is not my fault' but because I am who I am, I need to face the music and be accountable.
I used to think that maybe, I can strive to be an MP one day. Now, I think twice. thrice.
http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/1130309/1/.html

R or W

I am also stepping into my new job with trepidation ...and I hope that I made a R(ight) and not W(rong) decision. Sometimes, we just need the nudge or courage to move forward. While I respect this man ...I hope I can be like him - ever so pesevering to take up challenges!
http://mohsingapore.blogspot.com/2011/05/goodbye-my-friends.html

Not alone

He made the last statement which resounded well with me. I heard it before said in my current job...'You are not alone. We are here with you ...to support you.'
But in reality, one still have to face the battle or rather take a decision by oneself. That's what taking responsibility and ownership is all about.
http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/1129831/1/.html
He seems a nice guy but unfortunately, I won't have a chance to work for/with him.

Move on

I am likely to move on to a new job soon ...come July 2011.
I really pray that it is a right decision on my part.

Big Dec

I need to take a major decision soon, to determine how and what I want to do going forward. Yes, I am worried and I mustn't make a wrong move.

Met

Met some ex-colleagues at a recent briefing.
Happy but sad too.
When one leaves, one is forgetten somehow and it can be back to the Hi-Bye stage.

Can I be more 勇敢?

This is a very nice song ...I like it very much.
很多事情不是谁说了就算 即使伤心结果还是自己担
多少次失望表示着多少次期盼 事实证明幸福很难
我们之间不是谁说了就算　拉扯的爱徒增结局的难堪
一百次相爱只要有一次的绚烂 下一次会更勇敢

当冬夜渐暖　当大海也不再那么蓝
当月色的纯白变得阴暗 那只是代表快乐不再那么简单
　　
那只是因为悲伤从来　都不会有答案
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZcTAnpMgBxE&feature=related

Apr

April is the usual time of the year where the Mediacorp celebrities get recognised, I usually get very excited cos, I wish I was could be there and being one of them. As I grow older, I learn to be on terms with it - I know it is getting harder to fulfill this dream of mine, though nothing is impossible thou. Sometimes, I also thought that I am so silly to harbour such childish dreams but again, don't we all need dreams/goals to keep us going in life? While I used to vote for the celebrities, now I don't anymore - cos, I know this dollar of vote can be put to better use. Maybe, I am really getting wiser.

Crossed X

I am keeping my fingers crossed for a possible 'breakthrough'.

8 days of silence

Have been busy doing a report ... and thus, 8 days of silence...also, good to be quiet for a while. Hoping that with a clearer mind, I can tread the path ahead more confidently.

无惊无险，又到五点

That's the catch phrase my OM says ... It sounds relief but the process of waiting and praying that everything 'shun shun' till 7pm is not easy. What if ... What if ... Imagine the doings of 2,000 young ones ... to them, they may not know the consequences, the responsibilities that I have to bear....*shudder* Time to go.

Blue

April is here. No April's Fool joke thou cos the mood in me is blue. Almost 3 years in the job. Most people would have settled in or would have left if they do not like it. But I am still here.

Recon-nect

Feeling reconnected...all these were certainly my favourite dance hits...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HXaakPl1hyw&feature=related
[Beautiful Life]
Wonder are there clubs out there still play such dance-able songs?

Money

I learnt a lesson. Valueable one.
When you have extra money/cash, keep it in the bank even though the interest in low.
If you invest it, you risk losing it, or the money will be 'stuck' when your investment is not a right move.

When

- we are studying, we don't have to fuss over pocket money. Daddy and Mummy will give.
- we are working, we don't have to fuss over money that much cos we learn to earn our keeps.
- we are married, we have to fuss ...cos, we need to save up to start a family.
- we have our children, we have to fuss so much, to earn enought to feed them, and see them through their growing years.
That's what we call responsibility. Sometimes, I wish ... I was still single, then all my hard earned monies belong to me ... or rather, I can choose to lead a 'happier, less stressed life'.

Hooked

Take a bow. Taiwan just produces captivating and entralling dramas. I am hooked again.
http://tw.sugoitw.com/the-fierce-wife-episode-01/

Hols Again

I am so glad that it is holidays again, thou it is just a short week.
I always felt so relieved during the holidays, praying hard that no injury, no complaints, dun need to worry etc... but I know I am like running away. Yes, I am tired of it all though I admit now that I have learnt to adapt and respond to things better.
I am not sure how soon I will get a change but I hope it wun be too long ...

Run away?

Well, cannot run away now...all 87 seats contested ...I have to work liao...unless, I can be "out of my job" before ED in late May?
http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/1114574/1/.html

Jobs are not easy

Once, I wished I could be in an acting role...now, I seriously think twice...cos, I realised it can be tough, real tough...if I can't swim well, how to do a scene, where I dive into the pool.
The following scene also ....most people or the old folks were say "CHOY CHOY ...tei gar lei shi"
http://video.xin.msn.com/watch/video/romeo-tan-turns-up-for-his-own-funeral-%E9%99%88%E7%BD%97%E5%AF%86%E6%AC%A7%E5%8F%82%E5%8A%A0%E8%87%AA%E5%B7%B1%E7%9A%84%E4%B8%A7%E7%A4%BC/tnvuxakr
I should be satisfied with my job...shouldn't I?

Own

In the past, I always pin on the hope that I will meet my 'bo le' or 'gui ren' who can take me far.
Now, I know that I can only depend on myself. Nobody will help cos everybody seems to be so preoccupied with their own lifestyles/work. And that's life. I am guilty of it too.
My future is in our hands. If we want to achieve something, we better put in effort and not hope for miracles cos miracles are usually dreams which are meant to be dreamt. Seldom, it comes true except for fairy tales. This is another new taiwan drama that I am hooked to lately.
http://www.dramacrazy.net/taiwanese-drama/sunny-happiness-episode-10/123353

Skin

Some people are just thick-skinned to get herself into the limelight.
Wish I had that type of skin.
http://sg.promotion.yahoo.com/entertainment/article/post/entertainmentfeat_sg/190/ris-low-to-star-in-her-first-movie.html

For the past 50 days...

I have been eating turkey (1 pc) sandwich (multigrain) as breakfast without fail.
I have started to eat "natural yogurt" and take protein supplements.
Wow, I should be ready to 'step out' and show a 'new me'... and the results of my efforts.

If I can ...

Like some, I wish I can retire now, in 5 years' yime, or 10 years' time...
Tired of working - but if we do not work, then how do we earn our keep?
Any short cut?
http://sg.finance.yahoo.com/news/25-Things-to-Do-When-You-usnews-2653872129.html?x=0

Dreams wait for me?

This is home truly...where my dreams wait for me....
The 'new' Home song sung by 39 artistees...
http://www.thisishome.sg/
My dreams? .... I am still searching patiently, after more than 40 years...

V Day

Well, the much anticipated Valentine's Day will be over in 30 mins. Pre and post marriage does make a difference to how most couples would spend the day. Thou there are still the lovey doveys around, I am afraid I can't do so anymore ... at least not in the last 3 years...cos my job doesn't allow me to take leave ....heck it!
Anyway, priorities change when one becomes a parent...and really, what difference does the PE on marriage, parenthood and parenting make? I ponder.

Why not?

I am not sure if any of you have the same wish as me - not having to fret over $ - have sufficient, wake up and attend to family needs, spend exercise, networking, time with family and friends... Maybe, rich, tai tai or self-employed or those really jobless can have such lifestyles... Can the working adults like most of us do so?
I really envy her ....she has skills and knowledge and put it to good use, and yet enjoy freedom of 'work'.http://www.lynnyap8888.blogspot.com/

After LNY

Another LNY is over, I am a year older... and it is back to reality/life again tomorrow when work resumes. Thenafter, it will be Camp, Site Validation, Elections, etc...
I guess that's the way life is and we should be brave enough to face reality...
Maybe, lady luck will give an opportunity to me in the year of the Golden Rabbit.

'Must watch' Taiwan Drama - Autumn Concerto. Excellent acting!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1qFdK7AYRrk&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FCewloA5pBo&feature=related

Health is Wealth

As I have not been so healthy on the eve (Tiger Year) and start of the new year (Rabbit), I would like to wish all my readers and supporters, good health in the year of the Rabbit.
This year, we will see 'erratic' weather and that can bring about sickness...so, all of us must take good care cos, health is wealth.
So, before we HUAT HUAT HUAT, better make sure we stay healthy cos nothing beats good health to enjoy the happiness and bliss life brings.

Wet

Never recalled ever got such wet wet days leading up to Lunar New Year. It seems the sky is 'crying' ... for 'who' - I am not so sure thou....maybe, for me cos so far, things are still status quo for me.
The world will be ushering in the Year of the Golden Rabbit in 3 days' time...while it is 'golden', i think the year ahead aint that smooth sailing as everyone would hope so. It is certainly a tough year for those born in the year of the rooster. So, I must really lie low and yet be on my toes.

Shiver Shiver

Everytime, I read such news ...I shiver in fright.
No more of such days again where I have to ...
http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/1105707/1/.html

Remember?

Beautiful love song which was prev sung by a superstar...now, he himself also a superstar, singing it....I like his version too...cos sung be a male. I can 'feel' for it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7s9vY7UmvYw
谁还记得 是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话 是我们以后的伤口过了太久
没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手 说要一起走到最后

6am

This is the wake-up time for me, starting this year..and many more years to come.
Felt so sleepy in the morning cos ...I am still getting into the habit of sleeping early.

Better

A colleague in school sent us the following greeting. Tot it sounds meaningful.
"Be always at war with your vices, at peace with your neighbors, and let each new year find you a better man."
It is certainly true that we should strive to rid our vices, make friends, and be a better person. This is certainly a reminder to me ... I should be a better man, better husband and a better father.

Over 40

When one is over 40, the outlook in life differ drastically from others:
- we tend to place greater emphasis on our health.
- we tend to worry that we may not be able to realise our dreams (do what we want to do) and thus, expedite to achieve it.
- we tend to start thinking (and planning) for our 'retirement'.
- we tend to want to 'slow down' a little to smell the flowers.
- we tend to be 'less competitive' to want to surge ahead.
- we tend to 'look for/remain in a job' that we can possibly retire.

Again, thatz me. But we also know that for some or many, life begins at 40 and they are all out to 'cheong and cheong to the top'

Grown up

When one is single, we could spent 'countdown' with our family and/or our friends.
When one is married, we are likely to do so with our family. That's the way it has been for me for some 10 years. I am not complaining ... cos I know I need to learn to be contented, and be appreciative.
Going forward in 2011, I know I need to make effort in achieving what I want to. I am certain that I will be a "better and fitter" person. In 2010, I have attempted several 'firsts' though some were not successful/pleasant.
I wish all my family, friends, and readers a happy and healthy year ahead!

[My all time favourite inspirational song for myself -> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KpyQSXJ8QEE&feature=related
A song that never failed to make me teared ->http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b3dP-8Ti6x8&feature=related]