Live On

I like this song when I first heard it ... Again, it is certainly a 'cheena' hokkien song...
黄思婷 ~ 勇敢
I came to know this song through [ Love 爱 ] - The current Taiwanese melodrama serial on Channel 8.
没有你的日子,我能勇敢地走下去?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NcLCenoRDa8&feature=related

From the Start

An old song. Just heard it.
Nice song ...For those in love.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=67gupfeefKg&feature=related

Stay

I heard this song as I was walking past Pacific Plaza (aka the building next to Shaw Towers) one afternoon. At that moment, I felt shattered ...
Don't Go Away Lyrics by EraGratias
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fqoODXPBxEM
agimusAgimus tibiPropter magnam gloriamPropter gloriam tuamDomine Deus, Rex coelestis
Oh Domine Deus!Pater omnipotens
Don't go away, don't go away
Forever and ever we'll go on
Don't go away, don't go away
There's no other place where you belong
Don't go away
Oh Domine Deus!Pater omnipotens
Don't go away, don't go away
Forever and ever we'll go onDon't go away, don't go away
There's no other place where you belong
Don't go away, don't go away
I've given to you, babe, all my love
Don't go away, don't go away
Forever and ever we'll go on

Dun call

Many times, we wait for a special someone to call us (but din have the courage to call) and others who are not supposed to call (e.g. office colleague) called to ask about work when we are on leave. Isn't that irony?

Bad Attitude

I know there are such 'see you down - don't see you up' sales person around. They come close and are very nice to you when they think they can 'fleece' you to buy their products/services. Once they know you are disinterested and unlikely to budge, they just 'brushed you aside'. That's what I called bad service, bad attitude. I guess it is the same anywhere - esp those proclaimed 'high class' shops. A lesson learnt, indeed.

Slimming

If you think that slimming really works, maybe, it will ....but essentially, they are just helping to lose the water in your body which can potentially cause dehydration of your skin, body. After that, you drink water to replenish...and that's where your weight will regain ..and then the process starts again....isn't that ridiculous when you pay hundreds and thousands? I guess the basics are the most effective - exercise, and sweat it out ...That's my wife strategy. She is certainly smarter than me.

Learn from others

No offence to my female readers.
There are certain useful sensual articles about turning on the women, in Men's Health website. Check it out -> http://www.menshealth.com.sg/sex-relationships/give-her-breast-orgasm?utm_source=MH+Newsletter&utm_campaign=20101213&utm_medium=email

NOT fair

My legs are just 'too fair' ... to appear as a sporty person.
I am not really one but I tot it would look good to be one.
But I am not an outdoor person who plays swim, soccer, beach volleyball, fly kite etc...
Hence, to achieve the effect, I have to resort to what I used to do ...indoor taning.
Still, cannot compare to those outdoor freaks ....sigh.
Sometimes, I wonder why I cannot find contentment in who I am.

Meadiocre

Like most if not all parents wish that their son can 'soar like a dragon' and their daughter can 'scale as a phoenix'. I do too. However, lately, I realise that I am kidding myself cos, the children have to have the clever genes to excel. Some parents may not have the opportunity to excel given certain circumstances. As such, they may seem meagre but their children are cool while some parents are holding esteem posts but their children are just meadiocre. Well, we do not rule out that every child can succeed in their own way/field and that success should not be based on academic achievements but then again, we cannot deny that academic success is somewhat the basic foundation that has to be right to progress forward in life. The recent PSLE top pupil's parents are both doctors. There are certainly stories of scholars whose parents are taxi drivers or labourers.
If my children are just meadiocre, I guess I can only blame myself and ....

Wedding Tots

Just settling in to bed after attending a posh wedding at St Regis. I am beginning to feel worried that my angpow may not suffice. The food, a 6-course dinner, was good but the service can be better thou. I will post the pic once my colleague shares with me. Wow, don't think I will ever afford to set foot on that 6 star hotel.
Again, wedding dinners reminded me of the days that I had my wedding - 10 years ago in Dec 2000. Then, I was glad that I had tables of colleagues, and some friends who were there to give me their well-wishes. 10 years on, I have new colleagues but where are my friends? That really saddened me. I am beginning to feel guilty that maybe, I have not been putting in effort to 'keep' my friends.
I am certainly not a sociable person ...so, I don't expect to have loads of friends but close friends - where are they now? I hope I don't have to live my ageing years alone. That will be very sad.

Job Woes

Every job has its woes. Such incidents would come under my purview but alas....
http://sg.yfittopostblog.com/2010/12/03/%e2%80%98sleeping-girls%e2%80%99-molester-in-school-nabbed/
Heavy responsibilities, I felt at such remarks:
“The school needs to step up their security. As parents, we trust them to be responsible for the students when they are in school,” said Madam Cindy Teo, 47, whose daughter is a student.

No end

It is one of those nights that I don't want to sleep early thou it has passed 1am.
I realise that in life, there is no end to how we can 'improve' our looks. We can't fight nature nor reality. For example, if one goes for a slimming session, she has to go many times just to stay in shape. If one goes for an expensive haircut, she has to go frequently to have the look. If one goes for waxing or body contouring, she has to revisit the service on several/many occasions to look good. That will mean lotsa monies need to be spent. There seems to be 'no end' to it. So, the wiser man knows better - not to start it first. Sadly, I am none the wiser.

Sports Fave

I am not a sporty person but I do enjoy watching sports games especially Badminton, Table Tennis and Diving. This is one of my favourite player - Pornsak.
http://www.gz2010.cn/info/ENG_ENG/ZB/ZBB101A_BD@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@ENG_number=5000319.html
I like players who are calm and composed and not those who yelled and ohmmmped when they won a point (aka aggressive). I read that Pornsak is a lawyer by training...wow, envy - wen wu shuang quan.
I am quite poor in my motor/coordination skills ...that explains why I am not good at sports. It doesn't really matter now cos at 40, I can't afford to be playing competitive games as we are now more prone to injuries. My knee cap is still 'recuperating', I think thou I can now walk as fast as I used to be ...the last 5 weeks were miserable as I cannot run/walk ...
Anyway, I am lazing at home today to watch the Asian Games matches....

D&D

I attended MOE D&D yest with my office colleagues. Theme was Masquerette...and some people who attended really dolled up and some actually went to rent victorian costumes etc...which costed them over $100. I didn't do so and won't bother to do so. I guess I am not the sort who is also 'sporting' or rather 'stupid' to spend the money...haha
Anyway, lucky me won $40 NTUC vouchers as the 54th prize.
Actually, there is a dance segment at the end of D&D ...which I really 'missed' - I always love dance hits...it really perks me up!

Straight As

It is one of those sleepless nights where I wonder ...
I know it is certainly not true that 'well-performing' pupils have 'very educated' parents. Some may argue that the parents have garnered merits in their previous lives. Some may say that their parents have 'grilled' them well. Some pupils are simply very motivated or very intelligent.
I am not comparing with others. Have I been too laxed with my kids (or didn't supervise enough) so much so that they have 'played too much'? or they are simply not academically-inclined as much as I wish they are (a little more). I know I can't expect that they are outright smart or clever or do superbly well...but at least, the 'minimal mark'.

Responsibility

Every job comes with responsibilities. Varying thou.
Mine is somewhat heavy. I felt. In my over 10 years of career. Why?
Cos I am responsible for more than 2000 lives.
I am awake at 6+am on a PH cos, a group of teachers and pupils are returning after a 7-day trip to China. I am the key liaison here. Have been praying that things go well etc...which is certainly beyond my control, attending to parents' concerns (not much this round, luckily) etc....
I am not sure if this is what I want to do moving forward ...cos, a lot of things can be beyond our control and these days, things do happen and people are less forgiving for 'mistakes made'. Every year, I need to worry 4 times for overseas trip and everyday for the day-to-day running.
I know I am tired but I may / likely to stay on for another year cos next year is not a good year for me and I should lie low. But for sure, I am well-supported by my colleagues thou.

Let me smile.

Din know there is such a nice song. I know I need to smile more.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TaIpdMZN3E0&feature=related

41

I have just turned 41 (clap clap..haha). And it is sad that nobody wishes me well ...cos had a bad tiff. So, I foresee that tomorrow will be a 'quiet' day for me...it doesn't matter really cos somehow, I have no mood to 'celebrate' as I age.

Rich Enuf

I was at PASSION yesterday. Guess thatz the price I pay to hopefully light up a hope.dream. Anyway, I was told of a dazing/cute guy whom the staff there went 'gaga' over. And I understand that he works for his uncle who is the boss of Shangrila Hotel. Wow, envy. If only my uncle is willing to let me work with them? Ha.
He visits the hair salon every fortnight and every haircut service, I understand costs close to $90....wow, if only I have that kind of money to spend. I am not born with a silver spoon in my mouth.

Hair Cut

I finally went for my complimentary hair cut at PASSION yesterday ....wow, the name itself thrills me. Will I get to meet some celebrities there? No. I didn't. The hairstylist was very nice to me, thou it is complimentary (cos I was handpicked by the boss...) anyway, I decide to pay a sum to get my hair treated and coloured. It certainly costs a bomb but I am pleased with it thou nobody (wifey nor family) noticed ....haha
I am unlikely to visit it in the next 3-6 months ...and probably twice a year ? I hope someday, maybe, some kind soul there will make my dream come true!

Those Days

Finally, found time to watch this army docu/drama on youtube.
I can still those days when I was first enlisted and those days that followed...
Dun think it is of any interest to my readers thou...
all i can say is that looking back ...the times were tough but it is over but seriously i dun think i will want to go back time to experience it again.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gxmp8nwQ43Q&feature=related

Small Steps

While we know that we dun want to live our lives in vain, we should know our limits as we pursue our dreams. I am now taking small steps forward to do what I always wanted to ... before the time comes when I no longer have the energy to do it anymore.

Taking Leave

Heard in the news that the annual Subaru Challenge has just started and more than 400 participants this year, some of which are past participants...They said that they are trying to break their previous reports and test their endurance probably. And I am sure they have applied for leave to recover next week. And I know for sure, there probably aren't teachers or school staff in the midst cos we are not allowed to take leave during term time. See, these are restrictions of our jobs. Haha.

Book 1

I am reading this book by Pat Williams and Karyn Williams - THE TAKEAWAY : 20 Unforgettable Lessons Every Father should Pass on to his Child. Thou some of the lessons do not resonate with me as there is mention of faith but most of the lessons do .... Here they are
1. Wear Your Seat Belt 2. Enjoy Your Life 3. Be Good to People 4. Take Care of your Body
5. Exercise Your mind 6. Date to Live Big 7. There are no Giants out there 8. The World will take care of the Jerks 9. Make good decisions 10, Choose your friends wisely 11. Does he/she make you a better person? 12. Be the man/woman you want to be!
Thou it may seem late that I learnt them now...I hope it is not too late to pursue some myself in this lifetime.

Fire

Most of us were told by my parents or some adults not to play with fire.
But as one gets older, we know that if we don't (take the risk), we probably will remain being what we do. Is it how we want to live our life?
Am I ready to 'play with fire'?

Trailing Behind

I am afraid that if I dun buck up or do something about it, I will trail behind.

Unusual

I saw this earlier - "If you are not willing to risk for the unusual, you settle for the ordinary." by Jim Rohn when I was at the EC House having a $10 hair cut. I always feel that you pay for what you want. A $10 vs $50 haircut, what would you choose? Most of us would choose $10. That's why we are the ordinary. I want to be the 'unusual'.

No Time

There are several articles on people who have passed away in the last few days - some due to road accidents, some due to illness and I know one distant colleague who had died of cancer just yesterday. It is another 'wake-up call' to me that time is running out and I better expedite my dreams. If lifespan of an average male is 79, then half of my life is over. If it is only 70, then probably 2/3 of my life is over. What have I done and what I have not achieved yet. I better get started soon.

Quiet

I will be keeping quiet for a while, to think through things.
I know I have been living in fairyland, dreaming of the impossibles.
I know I need to get down on my feet and walk more steadily.
9 months have just gone by, another 3 more to go before another new year.
I know I need to relook at my life goals and chart my journey forward.

Sleepless

It is already 1am but I am feeling sleepless thou I know I am tired.
It is one of those blue nights where I sit and reflect and think about life, future.
The clip below makes me feel 'worse' cos I would have wished I was younger. more daring. more confident. to pursue my dreams?
http://blogs.xin.sg/baguatv/
Thou we know that there are some who made it when they are older - 40s and 50s, I really dun think it would be me. In life, if we dun try, probably we may not know ...

Disturbed

Feeling a little disturbed lately. My boy doesn't seem to want to focus on his studies.
Can someone give me some tips to get him to 'see the need to' and 'stay focused'?

Aggressive

I know I am not aggressive at work. And really, I do not see the need to. But the harsh world outside seems to 'force' us to. And for me, I still hold my principle to heart - to influence and persuade - but this only work in an unreal world?

Sob

How can I be fantastic or fabulous when I am seriously experiencing 'reclining hairline'. I suddenly feel so lousy and sad. How can I save myself?

Fab 40

She is fabulous 40.
http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/entertainmentfeatures/view/1082308/1/.html
I want to also think that I am in my fantastic 40 too.
So toned, slim and cool.
Maybe, somebody should feature me soon before I really get 'older'...haha

REad

I usually like to read gossip juicy news ...thatz why I wonder why I din pursue a job in journalism (ooops, i dun have the flair for language) nor reporter ...
That aside, I am not usually a book reader ...cos, I rather read entertainment news/articles etc...
As part of my job, I have to read this book -
http://www.amazon.com/Remember-Who-You-Are-Stories/dp/1591392845#
Good book certainly. Lotsa insights. But focus is on leadership which is something I know I dun like to do. What we can be a leader in our own lives, the need to lead others is not easy and not something I desire.
Sometimes, we may think that we are "not cut out for it" but others think we can fit in ...

Silence

I know I must learn to appreciate the beauty of "Silence" cos I tend to have the habit of wanting to "break the silence/ice". As such, I talk more than I listen which is 'not correct' as we are born with 2 ears and 1 mouth.

Reality

It is not easy to be at the top. If the the top man does not perform or show results, they will be replaced. Thatz the harsh reality here and everywhere. We need to produce results, and show impact in what we do, and gets measured for what we produce/achieve.
http://sg.news.yahoo.com/afp/20100910/tts-finland-telecom-equip-company-execut-509a08e.html

Words

Din know that homework can be done 'using' the internet. Needed to help my child list compound words and after an hour of 'thinking', can only name less than 20. but with a google search, out comes 2,000+ of which he can select 60 for which he can submit. Amazing. If I dun learn to tap on technology to improve my efficiency, I probably will be outdated. Learn as age is no limit cos life begins at 60 (or rather 40 for me?)

Not Easy

It is not easy to be parents, esp when your spouse just 'contradict' the way you want to educate your child. I learnt before that both parents must "stand together on the same side" when disciplining the child but I am always blamed for 'losing my temper' when I am not. Is it wrong to reprimand your child 'irresponsible when he just play day in and day out without putting in effort to do assigned homework?'

Chop

Yes, I have decided to chop off my rebonded hair for something short (and sad 'curls' cos of my natural curls) cos I tot that it is about time to 'face the reality' ....though I know keeping my hair long is 'critical' for me due to FS. Lady Luck hasn't been too kind to me as yet. Maybe, she will be kinder to me soon.

Hi-Bye

Usually, one is forgotten when one leaves a job. There is no more common topic to talk about. It becomes a 'hi-bye' state and esp so, when everyone is busy with their own work. Is Life meant to be lived that way?

Lucky Chap

This 'celebrity' is certainly lucky (with hardwork, for sure), to be able to get the job he desires (presumably) or being 'talent hunted'. I am certainly not as lucky as him. Reason being, I don't have the x factor, I have no lobangs, I know nobdy up there who may have given me a lift and many more excuses. For sure, I didn't put in the effort or being in the right place at the right time. I know I shouldn't compare or complain but ....
http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/entertainmentfeatures/view/1077973/1/.html

UNreasonable

[I was 'queueing up' at a vegetarian stall to get my dinner. This lady squeezed her way thru to the front and I tot she is looking at the dishes she want to choose. Fine. After the indian lady infront of me (which I graciously let her go first thou I was ahead of her as the queue line was a bit 'blur') was served, the lady uttered her order - she wanted to packet 2 dishes. I was like ...isn't my turn first?]
Me : EXCUSE me
[In mandarin]
Lady : What, I know this stall very well. That side got people standing. So, I order here.
Me : Then? So? You have to queue up. [I signalled to the lady ahead of me ... and claimed that I am in the queue, and next ... the indian lady said - dun bother nor quarrel with her.)
Lady : You got no 'feng du' ...what a man. You serve this man first (she signalled to the stall owner) Dun want to argue with you.
Me : What, me dun want to argue with such 'lao nu ren', so unreasonable. never queue.
Lady : I also dun want to argue with you 'lao nan ren'. [Me felt like boxing her ...]
I got my food, and walked away ...and turned around and said - Stupid woman!
I guess this woman must be using 'this tactic to get round queues' ...and me wun just give in. Haha.

Low

My self-esteem is not usually high. And it runs in the family.

Appraisals

This is the time of the year that everyone is busy/stressed with appraisals. In my current job, I had to handle this ...and guess what, I dun like the process and idea. In my prior job, I only need to provide inputs...now, I am tasked to co-ordinate it at a local level and worse, facilitate the sessions....sigh.... It is not easy, who am I to do this? this is HR matters. Does it then mean, I am destined to go back to 'HR work' when I just 'got out of it' 10 years agon to focus on comms work? Irony!

No Tea or Coffee

I dun drink coffee. I dun drink tea. I only drink horlicks (plain - no sugar, no milk) every morning. Maybe, thatz why I tend to feel sleepy. so easily.

Thank you, Boss!

Now that I am doing that aspect of work. I understand liao.Thank you to my ex-bosses, those who have given me good grades ...and those few who finally push me up for a promotion to a higher grade back in 2006. I feel bad that I am not quite good at 'presenting' my officers. And that is certainly not my forte.

Accountability. Responsibility.

I know I must accept it cos, I am paid (that much) for the 'accountability and responsibility' I need to shoulder. If and unless, I can afford to do something else, and not shoulder on. If not, I rest my case and continue with my work.

Not Vocal

To some, I may be vocal when it comes to matters that are of interest to me, e.g. myths of pregnancy, beauty/face care etc... but when it comes to work/official presentations, I tend to stumble. That's why nobody actually praise me, but it doesn't matter to me actually. Worse, these 2 years, I need to present my staff as part of the ranking process and sadly, I am not able to convince the panel, at times. (Lucky, I need not do so in the prev jobs.) [Maybe, preparing a script may help...haha.] This year, I also have to coordinate the ranking exercise, and it is really 'dua zhong' ...sianz. But compared to writing papers, i think it is easier lar....anyway, i am still hoping and searching for a change soon.

Plan

haha....suddenly my wife and I "hatched" a plan for ourselves. Sounds workable and interesting. Let us see how/if we can materialise it. If all things worked out fine, maybe maybe, I can 'retire' early? But that may mean I can't be conferred a National Day Award? (Congrats to my ex-boss who won the Public Service Medal (Bronze) this year!) But really, do I care? ...hmmmmmm...................

Bread!

I know I should be in bed, esp when I need to work 'later' but I just love this song so much so that I better post it up before I lost the link. Somehow, music and songs really tug me thou I know very well I dun have any musical talents to sing or play an instrument. Probably, I can still struggle in "Huang Jin Nian Hua" (haha...if I am still dying to perform...)
http://www.yue365.com/getgeci/7991/231196.shtml
夜深了我怎麼辦　寂寞了誰在身旁
心情變得好複雜　想她　念她　恨她
一個人你害怕嗎　細數過滿天星光
說好永遠不分開　多假 多假 多假
讓記憶長出翅膀飛翔
心放空了　寂寞好了
While I was watching the NDP 2010 earlier, the young ones were talking about 'living their dreams'... I tot - I can't possibly live my dreams now...cos I really have not much time left to do so and more because the responsibilities have changed and I am in a different 'stage of my life'. My dream is to bring enough bread for everyone in my family.

Master of None

It can be scary to know and realise that one's skills and knowledge gained in the initial years of one's career is no longer relevant, esp so when one switches job type and industry. And that may mean one is stuck in the last job ...and no where to go. Rightfully, aren't we supposed to broaden and deepen our basket of skills and knowledge?

Ideas for me?

Need some ideas from my readers.
This year, the theme for my D&D is "Careers Day".
I am thinking of what I should be on that day - what comes naturally would include Doctor, Army Personnel ...which is quite common.
Any suggestions? I jokingly blurted out - Swimming Instructor...haha
I may change 2 outfits ...

Charge

They are the new batch of scholars and warriors. Not me.
What I find amusing is the statement by the lady recipient...she loves to charge the forest.
Looks like she is certainly more 'gungho' than me. I am happy with what I am.
http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/1073627/1/.html

Lesson

In case my readers wonder if I am still dis-coloured? Thanks for your kind thoughts. I am fine now cos the dis-colouration due to the spray tan is gone though there are still little marks (hopefully not prominent) around. I guessed I learnt a good lesson.
Sometimes, in life, we have to go through some 'pains' to gain some wisdom. That's about life, right? While I may sound upbeat, I am still wishing...wishing for the special moment that I can possibly become a ..... (dreamz)

Loyal?

I am not a patriotic man but I do like some National Day songs, esp the older ones like Count on Me, Singapore. Today, I heard a song 国家 sung by some children from China who was at my school. I am touched. The original singer is Jackie Chan, I heard but I don't really like his version. I like the kids version -> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nhjsQqnpilc&feature=related
The lyrics that tug my heart.
其实一个家 一心装满国
一手撑起家 家是最小国
国是千万家 在世界的国
在天地的家 有了强的国
才有富的家 国的家住在心里
家是幸福的 洋溢国的每一寸土地
家的每一个足迹国与家连在一起
创造地球的奇迹
家是我的家 我爱我的国
我爱我的家 国是我的国

My Priorities

I recalled reading somewhere that if one were to answer that "it's only a job" to a question of "Do you enjoy your work?", then probably, that person is a wrong fit.
While it may seem that I am a right fit, I know it is not. I shan't go into the details but I know that my priorities are clear - certainly not safety nor security that I have to ensure, nor how the young can be groomed. My wish is to be a top notch sought after person so much so that I impress with my knowledge and skills on a subject matter. I am not sure if this dream can be fulfilled but I know if I don't even try, I will never get near it.

In Search of ...

Excellence? haha...as if I care. I know I should be guilty but my heart is not really with the young anymore. I am now looking for that special someone who have trust in me, and have the ability to 'turn' me around - to be a good-looker (groom me to be a handsome prince, esp my hairstyle and dressing) or give me a job that I fancy doing.

First Move

Life is like that.
One right move, all things seem to fall in place.
One wrong move, everything seem to fall apart.
But what is right or wrong, only we know it ourselves.
Hence, the first move/step is critical. Once a celebrity, always a celebrity.
I am sad that I am not, and hard to be one.

Affinity

All of us would have affinity to some people, things etc... We like some, we hate some or simply can't click with some.
Me too... there are some people that I 'will not forget for the rest of my life', not because they have treated me well but they were just 'jerks that have in a way damaged my confidence' - they are abbreviated as JL, JP, MY, CB and some others during my army times.
We know that the right thing to do is simply to 'move forth' and not 'look back', and it is certainly easier said than done.

Clips

Was attending a work-related workshop today where the trainer interspered it with lotsa video clips. Some of the clips were really inspiring and cool....I am not sure where he got it but I managed to find one below .... check it out.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_ve4M4UsJQo
As I ploughed through youtube thenafter...I saw the following clip (a bit gross) but I tot the message is clear.
We live once. We make the best in our living years...haha
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uswvZul1Z2s&feature=related
I know I am not a creative person ... thou specialising in media was one of my uni ambitions thou.

Uncle

I still have the habit to call other 'older' men uncle...when in truth, i am an uncle myself.
I smiled to myself when I tell my children - please check with the uncle at the counter.
I also feel guilty when I call the cleaner 'uncle, please help me to clear the table'.
I do feel offended when young(er) children call me uncle (faintz) when I wish I can be forever 'brother'.

Lack of Rest

Have been yawning a fair bit lately. Lack of sleep and rest, I guess.
Why? Hooked onto the computer, viewing the Dow Jones. Seems exciting, the DJIA stock market.
My FS Master "Sifu" once advised that ...if our body is tired and sends the signal of fatiuqe, go and get a rest. I am doing so .....now

我输了

Suddenly, I feel that I have lost a battle... a battle against myself ...cos, it is just so draining to be doing something that one doesn't really enjoy doing. I know in life, we may not always make the right choice, but it is the experience we gain at the end of the day.
Maybe, I really need a rest, a change, a breakthrough...soon.

Life should get better

Like I say before, Taiwan Idol Dramas just tug my heartstrings... This drama is coming to an end soon ...and this episode is just so touching ... Like the lead actress said "I must make sure that I live better tomorrow as compared to today." We should not be worse off tomorrow.
http://8dimentions.com/ps-man-episode-20/7/

Fairy Tale

I know I dun live in fairytale land, so I can't expect fairy godmother to grant me a wish.
Dramas can be deceiving at times. How can a childcare centre teacher become a director of a childcare franchise overnite? She did it. Movies, movies...so dramatic. I can't visualise myself being a celebrity overnite? haha
http://8dimentions.com/ps-man-episode-20/1/

Be my boss?

I had this strange dream/thought - maybe, I can try to be my own boss, and work in partnership with my ex-colleagues to set up a Comms agency to help the small companies on media buys and pitches. This may not be my forte but it has always been my love to do media comms related work ...such as TV and Radio spots and sponsorships etc...

5C

Most of us in Gen X (born before 1976) would have strived for the 5Cs - Card, Car, Cash, Career, Condo. I would not say that I am there but after more than 15 years of working, I have a number of cards (those with free waivers), car (can only afford a korean brand), cash (~6 months of pay for emergencies), career (a stable job but not fulfilling as yet) ....I have one more C to go and thatz condo. When I was much younger, I wish that I can stay in a condo where there is a swimming pool and a gym. That way, I can take a dip or exercise 'conveniently'. [I actually make it a point to go to the gyms wherever I am abroad on holidays.] Property prices are skyrocketing now...so, have to wait ...meanwhile, need to save (and invest) with a little hope to own a condo...but certainly I am mindful that I should try to be debt-free by 60 ...and not like some who had to slave even in the old age just to pay off the debts. My current HDB house should be fully paid for in 2-3 years' time.

Attractive

People usually judge 'on first look'. Attractive people usually stand a chance to be noticed and same goes for eloquent people. There is usually a group of working bees who may go unnoticed till much later, when their strengths are surfaced and seen. I should belong to the 'working bee' category. However, I am not confident that I am "sighted at" first look.

U watch, I watch

haha....now is the finals of the World Cup 2010...since most football fans are watching, i tot i should get up and join in the fun today...haha...unfortunately, i am unable to take leave on Mon to catch up on sleep...Another minus point of the job...

Blog

I wonder if I should dedicate a specific post for songs that I love...or on certain aspects to lure in more readers so that I can be a celebrity blogger ...haha... oops there i go again....(day)dreaming at this age. While I know the need to stay contended, but there is still a little urge to want to do 'something different'.

Mysterious Visitor & Update

I have noticed a (several) mysterious visitors to this blog of mine and left inspiring and philosophical comments for me. I am grateful. Either my readers are widening or some friends of mine are encouraging me in anonymity. Whatever it is. Thank You for the care and concern.

I have seen the doctor on Sat. She said it is probably uneven discolouring ...should be OK after the colour fades off ... I need to apply sunblock for this period. As such, I also, on the precaution side, stay away from exposing myself (the hands) to the sun. So, no outdoor running for the next 2 weeks. Certainly, a lesson learnt for me. Not to 'FAKE IT'... and to learn to accept the way I am instead of trying to be 'someone' else.

Price of Vanity

I cried. Cos, there is now a white patch around my left & right arm-hand joint area cos of the fake spray tan that I did (out of vanity). I am so sad. I may not be perfect looking again.
That's the price of vanity I am paying now.
Can someone or some product save me?
http://www.antivitiligo.com/?gclid=COfv_-2l3KICFQFB6woddG8mwQ

Peeling and Fading

Peeling...unsightly...thatz whatz happening at my 'arm elbow bend' area... and my whole shirt was stained by the spray yesterday. On hindsight, maybe, it is better to remain 'natural'... this form of spray tan is aka 'henna painting on the whole body skin' .... such 'fake it' may not be really worth it - the 'hassle of bearing with peels/fades' which may unintendedly harm the skin. If and unless it is to create an illusion ....for once, can try it ...but as a 'more permanent form' of appearing tan, i guess i wun want to try it again thou.

Bronzed

Some of you know that I fancy having tanned or bronzed skin.
However, I am not really an outdoor freak nor play outdoor sports.
So, had to resort to other means to achieve what I desire.
Just today, I tried something new - spray tan...quite interesting but the stains on the clothes after that is no fun... impact wise, I think the indoor tan lasts longer, but this mode gives instant results but lasts no more than 2 weeks, I understand.
http://www.pinkparlour.com.sg/
Since life is not long, do what we desire ...and live a fun life.

Song 21 [Chinese] : 愛很大

Heard this song on radio 2 days back. Was impressed by the vocals.
Sung by this gentleman who wears a mask and call himself - waterman.
Searched the youtube...wow, interesting. he is not superman, spiderman nor batman
His costume is interesting too....haha...good physique ...and certainly charmed the female and male (haha) fans...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xLrMcCmccPU&feature=related
Love is certainly good....it moves mountains and heart!
I know I need to learn how to love more.

彻底崩坏的 重生了
曾经伤害的 愈合了
不愿离开的 回来了
害怕孤单的 幸福了
看爱的夜空有流星的河
听爱的心中奇迹在唱歌

冰冷冻结的 融化了
哭泣流泪的 微笑了
支离破碎的 完整了
枯萎凋谢的 开花了
看爱的天空有和平的鸽
听爱的心中交响着快乐

Wake

Attended the wake of the late fathe of a colleague/staff on Fri evening.
When one attends more wake than weddings, that is an indicator that age is passing by past.
He was 82. I am 41 this year.
He just collapsed and died. Besides old age, some other ailment but not the serious kind. He had a flu, I heard and possibly due to pneumonia, the heart was too weak to distribute the antibodies. I believe he had lead a full life. That's his life.
What about my life? At the half way mark, I looked back and thought, where and what do I want to do in life? Are there some things that I yearn to do but not do yet? Is so, am I going to take action and do it?

At the wake, another colleague also shared some 'scarey' enounters that her late aunt related to her before the aunt passed away 2 months back - at age 73. It seems that at one's deathbed, one 'goes back in time' and reflect. Also, one can see the people from down below to catch your soul....eeyee.....scarey. I dun want to think further. The day will come to all of us someday. Let us cherish our living moments.

Exaspera

I am feeling a little exasperated. No calls. No emails. In vain.
Am I not good enough? Or have I asked for too much?
I am not sure. I am just waiting for someone ...to get me out.

At the same time, I can feel the warmth of the people in my job.
They do take good care of me, not becos of my position, I hope.
They have been really supportive and nice to me.
But I tend to worry a lot about ... (it is just me perhaps).

If I attempt to run away now, do I appear to be 'betraying'? I am not sure.

Repair

Yes, my car was beautifully repaired so much so that it looks 'brand new' again, following the scrraattcchhhed incident that occured in early June. So, if you need such a 'reconstructor' for your car, try Yee Auto Service at Sin Ming. Block 15, #01-107. Reasonable pricing.
The owner, Mr Chan Kai Yee is really assuring, nice and skillful.

Good Boss?

I saw this job adv in the website. I know I need to be thankful cos I am in a leadership position thou I know I am not/dun like to be a leader and many of my (ex and current)staff have 'affirmed and appreciated' me for being a good boss. I am grateful.
Responsibilities
As a Vice Principal (Administration), you will be one of the key members of the senior management team in the school. You will oversee all non-curriculum areas and help drive strategic planning and ensure efficient management of resources to support the delivery of holistic education. You will also provide leadership to a team of Executive and Administrative Staff to achieve excellence in school administration and operations. You will assist the Principal in the following key areas: • Undertake strategic planning and resource management functions and develop and implement systems for effective school organisation and administration• Oversee the management of human resource, finance, estate, logistical and general administration matters in school • Oversee communication and publicity plan in school and management of public feedback• Management of student affairs including strategic planning for pupil placement and scholarship matters, recruitment and placement of students and administration of student programmes• Plan and drive the implementation of physical and IT infrastructure improvement works and projects• Establish knowledge management structures and system within the school
Requirements
• A good degree from a reputable university with at least 8 years of experience in a senior management position. Prior experience in strategic planning and financial and human resource management will be an advantage • Passion for education and enjoys interacting with youth and children• Excellent people and leadership skills, with the ability to motivate teams and work well with people at all levels in the organisation• Dynamic and highly driven with strong communication and analytical skills.

One Leg IN

Some people are just lucky. They have more options. Though they are out, but not totally, as one leg is still in. They are still in demand somehow. And they are always welcomed 'home. But not me.
http://entertainment.xin.msn.com/en/celebrity/buzz/asia/article.aspx?cp-documentid=4171497&page=2

Tired

Was feeling a little tired lately.
Not sure why.
Maybe, cos the next school term is starting soon.

Back to Reality

Took a short holiday with family abroad - across the causeway last weekend.
It is like a blink of the eye and it's over ...so short - why are holiday/breaks so short while working hours seem so long? I am sure there are some workaholics out there who may think otherwise thou. The frustration part is that my boss can lament that her 10 days (2 consecutive weeks) of leave are so short while I only took 5 days of pocket leave ....and worse, having to go back to discuss work. What to do, she's the boss, I am not. Haha.
Anyway, it is time ... where I am back to reality. I am still here, I have just crossed my 2-year mark in my job. What's next?

Cast Me?

Some guys are lucky. This chap in Jolin's Real Man MTV is staging his concert in Taiwan U in July '10 before even releasing any album. WOW ...according to a source, he has to attract 3,000 fans before his album will be released. Am sure he will make it since he is so good looking. Haha
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SvG3p1ivgAE
This is a nice song. Will someone want to cast me in their video? Haha

Sleep Early, Sleep Well

Read this recently, as we age, we better make sure we get enough rest and sleep and not our health be ruined. Cheers to good health to all my readers and those who posted comments!
http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/health/view/1054777/1/.html
I will be away in KL for holidays over the next couple of days ...Shall be back with more updates.

Song 20 [Canto] :浪子心聲

Not sure why I tend to feel emo in the month of June ... probably it is time of the school hols where I have a bit more time to think thru ...and reflect (this is the term that schools like to use).
Sometimes I feel so vangebond ...haha...and this golden oldie is one that is very close to my heart....and for sure, I will sing it in my 'concert'. http://www.aiting.com/MusicData/play/11824.html
難分真與假　人面多險詐　幾許有共享榮華　簷畔水滴不分差　
無知井裡蛙　徒望添聲價　空得意目光如麻　誰料金屋變敗瓦　
命裡有時終須有　命裡無時莫強求　
雷聲風雨打　何用多驚怕　
心公正白璧無瑕　行善積福最樂也　

To try or to give up

When the going gets tough, do we try (again) or give up?
I used to be very optimistic about my life ... as I age, I am getting fearful that time is not with me anymore... I must act faster but I seem to have lost a little of my passion and stamina.
Lady luck is not with me? Will Uncle Perseverance encourage me?

To lead or to support?

When we are young, most of us tend to be "aggressive in our career" to want to be boss and perhaps, lead. However, not everyone has the knack to be a good leader.
I am certainly one of them. I just want to support and happy to do so. But as one moves through stages of life, we realise that we cannot afford 'to start all over again'. Thus, only way is to move up...and not everyone is suited to be 'up there' cos it can be lonely and fearful...cos, once we lose our abilities, we tumble and fall.
In life, some of us are destined to be small players or rather playing supportive roles... we should put ourselves in the 'big picture' to see what we do can impact others.
We need to learn to be contented.

Fairytale

I know there are people who doesn't like taiwan idol drama ...they can be unreal, so fairytale-like, and draggy. I feel otherwise, cos those that i have been watching really made me 'sit up' ... I introduced this new drama PS Man some months back. It is still showing in Taiwan. It may seem nothing that 2 man fighting for a woman ...but it is such a fairytale ...wow, if only I can be so lucky to be "fought for" (for talents) by rich people ...haha
I am captivated by some scenes in the cliplink below. It is so touchy and endearing, and the acting, I feel is superb by all.
http://8dimentions.com/ps-man-episode-15/6/

Ex-colleagues

A nice ex-colleague is arranging a gathering with me and some ex-colleagues.
This is like a 'every half year affair' to 'stay in touch' since I left 2 years back.
While it seems fine, I am fearful that one day, such gathering will die off ....
I recalled the much earlier days ...in CPFB ... People leave, they will be forgotten!

Scrraatchhed...

Ouch Ouch ....my car door was scratched as my dearie wife drove unattentively against the wall in a shopping centre....I hope the repair costs would not cost her a bomb. I get agitated cos the monies, otherwise, could have been better spent on children's education ....sob.

Love for Canto

Many people may not know that I have a secret liking for cantonese songs ...cos they are just sung so beautifully by the ever-talented artistees such as the late Anita Mui, Hacken Lee, Eason Chan, Leo Ku...Edmund Leung is certainly one of my favourites ...just that he may not have the luck as others to 'make it big' ....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bUO6OLOMcJw&feature=related

K Dance Song - Sorry Sorry

I am not a korean pop fan ...but for sure, this song / MTV caught my attention today at GIANT.
Wow, these sleek moves by these young men ..... did anyone see 'me' inside the video .... haha...if only I had taken up dancing in my young days.... haha
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x6QA3m58DQw

Time is here

My sixth sense has somehow alerted me that the time has come ... for a change.
There should be no more pull factor ...

Junks

Most people know that I am quite a 'health freak'... thatz why I can still be so slim since my marriage days ...as most people will 'blossom' after that. Today, I just had a craving for junk food and for a change, I ate (cos I was so hungry or just feel sianz)...
a) cheese (without beef) burger
b) fried economical beehoon + fried beancurd
c) fried chicken wing
d) cheese cake
Feels good ....will resume my exercise regime tomorrow.

No more

No more vision.
No more goals.
No more plans.
Where can I go from here? I paused and thought.

Thinned

Met an ex-colleague on Mon. She said that I have thinned down a fair bit.
Maybe, it was because we have not met for a while ... or the shirt I was wearing made me looked thinner. OR I have really lost some weight ...
It is not a bad sign actually, cos to me, I enjoy being perceived to be 'slim' ...however, I also know that it may not mean a good sign cos thinner may mean that i am not really 'living life'...and i think life can be better if i put some effort to make it so. again, lady luck has to be with me too.

Run

May already ...Time flies.
Just completed a BIG school event ... so glad it is over cos it comes every 5 years. I am quite sure in 2016 when it comes along again, I shouldn't be in this job. Actually, a fair bit of unhappiness and misunderstanding arose as a result ....*long story*
I dun want to look back, I want to run forward.
There will be another BIG project that I have to handle in Aug. If I can get out by then, I will be glad...else, I just have to go thru it.

B and M

Busy Busy Busy week. Next week is even worse... after that should be easier, and I would be 'heck-care'.
I am not sure why pple at my stature has to end up doing powerpoint slides for presentation ...sigh....why me? thou i know i can improve my slides creation skills
Anyway, 2 more months left to ..... will I find a way out soon?
As such, I am feeling mood-y too.

what a win?

I am appalled by the results - especially the favourite male character winner - is that character really a BIG favourite? Personally, I don't think he is, as yet.
http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/1050983/1/.html

Affliation

I am a strange guy. Sometimes, I just have the affinity for a person, for a song, for a moment.
Lately, I like this song very much by Ghost (Xiao Gui). Some commented that his voice is unique, I tot mine too but it seems i can't sing? haha

依依不舍 舍不得 地球上最浪漫的一首歌
我怕太超现实的快乐 只是你借给我的
紧紧抱着 拥抱着 地球上最浪漫的一首歌
我的灵魂二十一公克 因为你而完整了 完美了
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ghYSIRrcpyU
I also 'fell in love' with Rene Liu's new song, which is also the end track for a hot TV idol drama - PS Man - 我們沒有在一起
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=moFp1gxRXvY&feature=related
Maybe, I should carve a niche for myself - to do something with music, drama and celebrity.

Pause

I learn, during a recent retreat, that we need to 'slow down, pause and allow our soul to catch up with our body.' Don't be so hard on yourself.
For me, I can't afford to do so cos time is running out for me. There are only 2 months left.

Well Again

Had to start on another course of antibiotics cos the earlier one din worked on me.
Now, my throat felt less 'inflammed'. I must get well soon.
Cos, I have many work waiting for me to do .....

Exasperation

This state sets in when one is feeling "unbalanced in life", as one is unable to reconcile one's goals/dreams with what he is actually doing. The feeling intensify when one is so distant from one's dreams...and knowing that it is improbable to attain it. Worse, what one is doing now distances one even further from it. And to make it worst, the hot weather, the virus in the body, and the people in his work drives one crazy. That's exactly what I am feeling right now. Sad isn't it?

Sick and Fever

Yes, Finally, it is my turn to be sick ...and had a high fever, 38.7
I am not sure if it is due to work stress, or the virus that is in the air.
As I grow older, I am wiser in that I have learnt to accept life as it is... not wanting to desire for more ...cos, sometimes, when one has some wealth, one may sacrifice his health. In this universe, maybe, we gain some, we lose some. Some of us are just not destined to be rich and famous.
Well, I hope that I will recover soon cos I have to prepare for a big event coming up in end Apr at work.

Punc Tyre

What luck - my new care rear typre was punctured as a result of an iron nail (on the car park floor) piercing through it. Why on earth are there such irresponsible people or could it be a sabotage? sigh....

Step Forward

Some people just know how to get the publicity they need, even for the wrong reasons but heck it, they won cos they are being 'talked about'.
http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/entertainment/view/1046762/1/.html
Some others have their ways of getting things done and winning in the end, are they that good really? I can sense the 'gloating grin'...
http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/1046293/1/.html
A lesson learnt -> they are 'daring to take the first step' ...when will i be daring enough to take my first step forward?

TW Drama Addict

Chanced upon another relatively new Taiwan drama - 第二回合我愛你, I must say that I am again addicted to this series as well ...besides the other one PS Man which I am already following. Somehow, for this particular drama ...the messages on marriage and parenthood are just so subtle yet so real. I am amazed by how the brilliant people over at HKG and TW can do their series so well as compared to what we do here ...untill people brushes them off as 'propaganda'. The male lead in this drama is so new chap in the acting arena. Cute guy. Lucky guy to lend such a role. Will I be that lucky too soon?
http://sugoideas.com/drama-2010/lucky-days/

Whirlwind

This young man (DYT - blog below) created a whirlwind 2 years back... he made it big within 2 years of entering MediaCorp. I certainly do not have his good looks but somehow, I am quite confident that given a right opportunity, I think I can do just as well, if not better (haha) in creating the next sensation in the aunties (probably not the younger girls lah) in Singapore. I am still secretly wishing that I can be in the Top 20 Popular ....again, I know I am dreaming....
http://www.dyt-daiyangtian.blogspot.com/
I am glad to clock in my 200th post! I hope it is a good beginning.

Earn more, Spend more?

Most of you would agree with me that people who earn more tend to spend more, or vice versa, they have spent more, thus, need to work longer hours/harder to earn more ..and the 'vicious' cycle. If I only earn that much, I will refrain from getting branded stuff for myself, visiting expensive restaurants, going to expensive/branded hair salons and so on. That is different for celebrities, they may earn more and they certainly spend more ... to look good ...they can't be possibly seen wearing baleno or giordano for that matter, instead they should be donning zara, AX and so on. There are certainly another breed of thrifts who earn big bucks but spend little, these are probably the loaders ...really rich! I used to admire people (esp celebrities) who drive big cars, until my wife alerted me - hey, they may be paying through their nose (eg $2K a month) to 'keep' their lexus/mercedes. SO, how do you want to live your life, and how I want to lead my life?

My Strengths?

Some pple are simply talented.
I heard this song once and I like it ...and I just found out that it was sung by the beloved Faye Wong...wow, after such a long absence, her voice is still so good. Some times, I tot to myself... can I be just as good in my own playing field?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xJX-XxmxIJU&feature=related

Mar School Hols

I am really glad that the Mar school hols are here...not only I can take/clear some leave, it is more of having some 'peace' cos the day-to-day of my work has somewhat created some 'invisible stress' in me which I am afraid has affected my health to some extent. While I am trying to stay positive, I am also feeling pessimistic that I am still here, and possibly stuck for a while more. It is not easy to be doing what I do... everything and anything can fall on my shoulder if something (touch wood) really happens... I can be on my walk to have my lunch at the canteen, when I do stop to pick up litters (empty bottled drinks, papers, used tissues) and call someone to help clean up puddles of split water or soup... You may wonder why I had to do that ...cos, should someone run and step and slip and fell....thatz it ....reports and reports....or someone make comments/feedback why not clean etc....I know I can be thinking too much but one has to be in it, to understand why I feel that way. Hmm......

Blue

There are certain people, I mean actors that I 'like' to watch their acting.
Blue Lan is one of them, which I know some dun fancy him. He has a 'beng' look though but in my views, he is a good actor and carries his lead roles well though they may seem similar. So lucky to be able to play lead roles always. From "Easy Fortune, Happy Life" to his latest "P.S. Man". This new show also casts the up and coming Sonia Sui, and James Wen. The first episode is so funny. Check it out....showing now in Taiwan, every Sun.
http://8dimentions.com/p-s-man-episode-01/

Not so easy

This song captivated me. Not a new singer. Infact, a seasoned one.
黃小琥 singing 沒那麼簡單
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MQntw6TWJcc&feature=related

Cooling Off Period

I know I need to lie low, as advised by my wife ...cos, according to a FS book she read.
Roosters are in their 'hotest temper' in Feb/Mar.
On hindsight, was it really my fault? or was it the other party? I pondered.
Just recalled that I had a similar kinda 'face off' with someone LL during my ex-workplace too.

Heated Up

Never in my working life, was I so worked up, like today.
Had a heated argument with a colleague/staff. I heard she was crying over it after that. I was so pissed of. I know I can be hot-tempered...
Anyway, I think I really had enough of it all.
I am determined to get out when the term ends.

3 more months...

Many of us would have heard the expression or read the stories (by David Hutchens) that - the grass on the other side is probably greener. I have attempted several moves to search for my greener pasture. It is a little sad now that with age, the impetus to move is getting weaker but I tell myself, I must get down to it, cos I dun have much time to waste. 3+ more months.

Karaoke

I was 'arrowed' to attend a grassroot LNY dinner event on Sat.
As this event is meant for the residents, the programme lineup and the performance are really 'heartlandish and ge tai style' but in a way, I 'enjoyed' it a fair bit. In particular, the hokkien songs that were sung that evening - 我问天, 爱拼才会赢, 一百萬 it really 'stirred' me up... it has always been a secret dream i had to be able to sing and perform but now, i guess i can only sit and watch cos, i doubt i have the energy at my age. I like this song too though it was not sung -一人一半. Maybe, it is a timely reminder that i should head for some karaoke ...but again, no kakis to go with me...so, where are all my friends, if any?

LNY

Wishing all my readers, if any (haha)
- Happy Lunar New Year (huat ! huat !)
- Happy Valentine's Day (don't take our spouse for granted !)
- Happy Holidays (esp those who stole the long weekend to get away...frankly, i feel that this is not so right cos, Lunar New Year is the time for get-together with family, relatives and friends...how can 'run away' to hide / relax??)
and most importantly - BEST OF HEALTH!

If your boss ...

- thinks that you are doing 'good or value-adding' work
- tells you that you are an asset to the organisation
- doesn't expect you to be 24/7 cos she herself doesn't do so / log in to work from home
- does not dislike you
I guess most of us will stay on such a job. I wish I can convince myself to do so.
Sometimes, it is the fit and the nature of the job which may not seem to suit us...but then again, not many people are lucky enough to land a job they really like. SO, perhaps instead of changing job ...maybe, should consider changing oneself - attitude to love the job. Can I?

It's Easier to be

a student than be a teacher
a parent than dealing with parents
a follower/worker than be a leader
a commoner than be a celebrity
loved than to love someone

41

Last week, the passing of a renowned billionaire and estate developer, NTF hit the news. He was a great man and he was 82. I am 41 this year. I have possibly crossed 'half my life' or even less. Thinking back, where am I now? what have I achieve? what do I want to achieve really? where do i go from here?
I hope I can be enlightened soon. real soon.

Li Chun

Today is Li Chun.
Some of us would have worn red and visited the bank to deposit some $$...hope everyone will 'huat huat and heng heng' in the year of the TIGER.
Chanced upon this ... quite true for me...how about you?
http://cny.xin.sg/yourfortune.htm

As long as ...

the boss likes/thinks well of you...half the battle is won.
This is something I learn and experience it myself, through my spouse, and from my working friends.
One can be working through the bones but if the boss doesn't think well of you ...all efforts are down in the drain...
One can be working not so hard yet smart and the boss thinks well of you ...one wins the game!
In life, we may not meet such bosses many times. But if we do, I guess we need to learn to cherish it.
As such, I know I need to think twice about ...

After 40

Rightfully, men at 40 are at their prime, be it career wise or family wise...and hopefully, health wise too....cos, usually illness will set in ...*shivers* This feeling is worse, when one received news regarding the various types of insurance shields... and the word - elder - is tagged to it ...haha
I also received on Sat, a letter from MINDEF informing me that I will no longer be liaible for NS and that I may dispose all my NS uniform and PE (helmet, SBO etc...).... a tinge of sadness sank in ... I am no longer needed to 'defend' my country (as if I... haha) anymore. It certainly bring to a closure of the memories of my NS and reservist days.
While I am glad to see the kids growing and progressing, career wise - as it seems fine but ... am sure can be better (again, thou shall not be discontented). Health wise, aside the minor flus and sneezes and the occasional pain (prob due to oesteoporosis), generally seems ok ...certainly, i must say that my physique is at my 'peak' compared to the 20s and 30s...haha...

New Car II

No reader made a guess. Perhaps, no reader or readers are busy. Or maybe, no big deal yeah?
Anyway, collected my new car on Fri, at 4pm. and I am happy. The new Car looks a big 'beng' thou with the solar film, sun visors...and the spicy red colour...haha

End Jan

At times, or rather many times, I wun want to sleep early cos, if I do so...tomorrow will come more/every quickly.
For me, at times, I wish tomorrow doesn't come (so soon).
Time is running out for me ...it is almost end Jan now.

New Car I

Will be getting a new car soon, to 'replace' the current one which has been 'damaged' due to a recent accident. I will miss her cos she has been serving me very well for the past 5.5 years.
So, wanna make a guess what type, brand that I will go for this time (given the not-so-well economy)? ... I am giving Nissan a miss.

Price for Beauty

I am just amazed by this article ...price for 'beauty' - worth it? probably not.
http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/1031849/1/.html
again, at times, i myself feel guilty doing the same - going for colouring, rebonding etc....
what if ....

Cough

I have a phobia of cough... the chest hurts when one coughs.
My girl had been coughing for a while and she has a sensitive throat. So do I.
I just learnt that an ex-colleague has taken ill due to cough. It is sad.
Why can't everyone live healthily? What food causes and ignites cough...?I get very 'mang zhang' when I hear the persistent cough from my girl sometime back... while it seems under control, the cough comes back when she 'takes something' that can aggrevate it. I feel hurt again.

Another Friend is unwell

Hmmm...loooks like the year of Ox haven't been kind to some of my friends.
I received news that another friend (ex-colleague) has taken ill.
I wish her a speedy recovery.
Sometimes, we wonder and ponder and ask - does all things happen for a reason?

38 Missed Calls

Never ever before do I have 38 missed calls reflected on my mobile. Not even 10.
Is there an emergency? NO
Is there some crisis? NO
Why didn't the person sms instead??
It was from a persistent car dealer yesterday who was hording me to make a decision on a new car buy...believe it?
haha....

4-0

I had almost opted for this option (article below - dun gasp!) when I realised that my tummy was showing. It is sad that sometimes, people do not learn to accept 'ageing'... Well, there are many other ways to stay in shape but then again, some things cannot 'run away'...our wrinkles, wrinkled skin ... I was told that age can be seen through our neck lines and our fingers/hand skin etc... I have started learning to come to terms with age, esp now that I am in my BIG 4-0. I recalled reading somewhere that men at 40-45 are the most masculinely charming (ahem!)...haha. Anyway, this is a good reminder to us all that we need to learn to accept reality of life.
http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/1029205/1/.html

$500 Poorer

I will be $500 poorer becoz
i) I wasn't careful when I drove that day and knocked into another car in a carpark on the second day of 2010 ...what a way to start the year?!
ii) I am disadvantaged, I was told ...but still can pursue if I wanna - cos, the other party didn't on her headlights in a relatively dark car park.
iii) I hope to keep my 50% NCD so that my insurance payment is lower

I found it strange when the other party demanded that it was my mistake ...and then when i was told that the repair costs for his car is more than a $1,500, I said we take it to insurance settlement, then he brought up re NCD ..and negotiate to settle off-hand. I told him that I am not prepared to pay that amount. He asked for my 'budget'? I should have said $100 (haha) ...anyway, I said $500 (cos a prelim 'quote' from my agent whom I described the incident and the damage done to the driver's door - $600/$700)....He said he will check if the driver (whom he loaned the car to) agree to pay some $$...anyway, he responded OK to the $500.
I suspect he just want to get some monies to 'buy a new car'....sigh...but forget it lah, take it as a lesson for me. My car damages would have cost much more...but I should be getting a new car lor since the damage has been done.