A Morbid post

Contents may be offensive to some.... my apologies for this morbid post

Today, 8 Aug morning - My parents and I went to CCK cemetry to make our 'final' prayers to my paternal grandparents who passed away more 30 years ago...yes, one in 1973 and the other in 1977. I may not come across as a filian son or grandson at times....but when it comes to the Qing Ming Festival every year, I will drive my parents and my aunt (in recent years) there to pray to the deceased. I have been the one doing so in the past few years. Infact, it has been a routine that the family since we are young to go and 'sao mu' ...but with time, the no. dwindles ..from over 15 to less than 10 to 8, 7, 6, 5 and now only 4. Today, only 3 of us went.
There was only twice or thrice if I do not recall wrongly that I did not go ...once was when I was doing a temp job and working that Sat/Sun, and another was my wife was carrying our first child ..and perhaps once during my army days?
Well, my grandmother's site is slated for exhumation under Phase 3 which commenced in Oct. My parents and aunties went to choose a nice new house for them at Mandai Columbarium yest....both grandparents will soon be housed together at E3-12-0140 and come next Qing Ming, we will not need to brave the dusty envt and the long queues to go to CCK cemetry.
While we were there today (for the last time), there was hardly others ....and I sighted an exhumation being carried out near my grandmother's grave and my parents were like shouting - don't see don't see....cos, to the chinese, such things can be quite 'negative and sha-qi' if one is not supposed to see....maybe, I am beyond that liao .... what is fated is fated lor....anyway, there was also 2 exhumed coffins covered with blue canvas...I guess they are waiting for the 'right time' to open up and extract the bones of that deceased.
Hopefully, with the new home for my deceased grandparents, more family members will go and visit them ....else, in time to come, nobody will remembers...
That's life -- we are born to this world, we live our life, we depart for the nether world.
As such to me, I really hope to live a meaningful life and live a legacy after I leave. I may not be able to be a superstar or celebrity (which I am still harbouring the dreams) ...I hope that pple will remain my good and not so much of my bad. I really hope that I can do all I want to do and not be in regrets in my dying years....
I am slowly taking steps towards my dreams ...and I sure hope that I can achieve it someday.somehow.